Far from perfect

Super mom, I am not. People always comment, "You seem to have everything together" or something similar. Um...not on a daily basis I don't!

For starters, I don't cook dinner, and if I do it's homemade pizza or spaghetti. A meal that can be made quickly. The times when I have cooked meals that require some sort of preparation, I find myself frazzled. It's not easy taking care of Marshall and Presley while trying to cook dinner I'll tell you that. But guess what? My husband doesn't care and loves me any way. I didn't cook every night before kids so why would he expect that now just because I am staying at home? It's just not in me...yet. I'm working on it though. I just need to get my act together and plan meals so that when I go to the grocery store I can buy what we need. I also don't make the twins' baby food. I had good intentions, but it's just never happened beyond pureeing avocados and bananas together. I buy organic baby food when it's on sale, so at least I try!

I am a teacher, yet don't read to my kids. Have you ever tried to read to two babies (no matter what the age) at one time? And one of them you're pretty sure is hyperactive because she is constantly in motion? Um yeah it's hard! They want to eat the book, grab the book, their mommy is holding on to both of them so they won't do the aforemetioned items and so she can't turn the page, the list goes on. But, I know it's not impossible and so I am working on this too. Believe me I know the importance of reading to your child!

There are days when I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next 30 minutes. I've even asked myself, "why did you want twins again?" Two babies that want to be held, two babies teething, two babies that don't want to nap...twins is hard people!!! Of course when I am around other people I'm going to "have it all together". I don't want them to think that I can't handle my children. And as much as some people don't want to admit it, we all care about what others think about us in some way, shape or form. Least you think I try to make people think my life is perfect, no way! I'll be the first one to jump in and say what a rough day or week they just had. I want others to know that I CAN handle it. The down side being that they might not realize just how hard it really is. At the end of the day, however, I think in general that I do have it down and I do have things together. My babies are happy and healthy, which is all that matters. No matter how difficult my day before with Presley and Marshall was, I ALWAYS look forward to getting them up in the morning and starting a new day.

Imperfection #4 (of 1,000) is that I am looking forward to going back to work in August. Not because I miss the students necessarily, but I miss my teacher friends. Adult interaction every day. I miss that awesome feeling when a child that has struggled finally "gets it" and makes good grades on assignments or passes the TAKS test. However, I also can't imagine running around after two toddlers all day and thinking of stuff for us to do that doesn't involve sitting in front of the television. I'm not crafty, not good at sports, and I'm not the play barbies all day type. Will I do that stuff when I come home? Yes. Will I do that stuff on the weekend? Yes. I also think that kids need interaction with other kids on a daily basis. Yes, my kids have each other. But they need to learn how to build relationships with people other than their sibling. Is it going to KILL me when I have to leave them every day? Yes. But it's worth the try and if I'm miserable after next year then we'll rethink things.

My twins aren't perfect. They don't nap every day at the same exact time, and for the same length of time. Sometimes their nap is 30 minutes, sometimes it's an hour and a half. I don't care though, because they are in their cribs asleep by 7:00 and they wake up around 6:30 (in general). They can't handle being "out and about" for more than an hour and a half or so, and when they get tired, they get really cranky! They are loud. They love to explore their voice and it's volume levels. But that's okay because I love them no matter what, and I love the fact that they've had personalities pretty much since they were born. They are spunky, quirky and absolutely adorable and I would not change one thing about either one of them!

So Martha Stewart, Carol Brady, Betty Draper, I'm not. I'm just me, doing things the best that I can and loving my life, imperfections and all.